Thursday, August 30, 2012

i am more than... temptations on the bathroom counter

“But you, man of God, flee from all of this and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance, and gentleness.”  I Timothy 6:11

Every morning, I sit my 1-year-old, Carter Mackenzie, on my bathroom counter so that I can comb her hair.  I’m sure there are much better places for this daily ritual to occur, but the convenience of the sink, her hair bows, and rubber bands all in one place keep me coming back to this same spot.  Every day as Carter sits there, she touches this thing, picks up that thing, smells this bottle, pours out the contents of that container….and every day, I constantly say, “Carter put it down,” “don’t touch,” “that’s not for babies”…and every day, she gives me this look that clearly says “Yea, whatever mom!”  As she was getting her hair combed for church Sunday morning, and we repeated the same scene verbatim, I wondered, “How many times will I have to tell her this before she just doesn’t do it anymore?”  Then, I had an epiphany; she’s not going to stop! As long as I keep sitting her on the counter with all of these temptations, she’s going to keep touching, picking up, smelling, and pouring out.  She’s a toddler.  That’s what she does!  As her (hopefully) more mature, wiser mother, I have to know that I have to keep temptation out of her way or….wait for it…comb her hair in a more kid-friendly place.  So tomorrow, maybe I’ll try the breakfast table :).

It is funny how learning moments with my kids turn into learning moments for me.  How many times do I know something is bad for me, but I keep tempting myself with it?  How often do I talk with friends who say that aren’t going to do something anymore, but they go back to a person or place that triggers that thing they aren’t going to do?  A LOT.  It’s so easy to do, and sometimes, so difficult to even recognize the things that provoke us.  When we are spiritual or mental “toddlers” in trying to overcome a temptation, we have to completely remove ourselves from those situations as much as possible, or we will continue to fail when trying to fight it.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

i am more poker face

“As iron sharpens iron; so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend.”  Proverbs 27:17
Late Saturday, one of my best friends and I were on the phone getting updates on each other’s weeks, and enjoying good conversation like only girls can do until the wee hours of the morning.  As it always seems to happen these days when you start to catch up….the conversation turned to Facebook.  Statuses, photos, pictures, etc.  My friend then gave me a very interesting perspective of why she is NOT a frequent visitor of The Book...

 When on Facebook, most people put on their best face, their Poker Face.  Online, you can be whoever you like.  You only have to show your good side.  Your good photo side, the clean side of your house, the polite side of your children, the loving side of your relationship, the productive side of your work week…you can showcase a perfect life every day.  The best part is that no one ever really has to know what’s REALLY going on in your life, only what you want to show them.  My friend and I got into a discussion of this the new social media trend.  Is it reality?  Is it healthy? Is it productive?  Is it the start of superficial "friend”ships, envy, and discontentment? 

Sunday, August 19, 2012

I’m Back!!!

I launched i am more than on April 15, 2012.  God had placed the longing and need to help others by sharing my story many years ago.  Along the way, many small opportunities to pour into others lives presented themselves, and I took them.  But I never committed to anything big, so they weren’t permanent and eventually they dwindled away.  But on April 14, as I was in bed thinking that I was on my way to sleep, He showed me a website, gave me a name, told me to create and write.  And I did until nearly 7 AM.  I had so much excitement, drive, and passion.  And then, as if on cue, my life fell apart.  My marriage that I thought had miraculously turned around was literally crumbling in my hands.  Parenting was hard, work was hard, and taking care of home was HARD. My last post was on April 20.  My encouragement for i am more than had come from how much God had brought me through and that my life was now moving forward in the right direction…not that it was still falling apart.  I took that as my sign that maybe God didn’t put it on my heart after all, maybe it was my plan that wasn’t His Plan.  Four months later, I’m looking back on it all, and I know that it was Him who put the dream and launch date in my heart.  His Plans were greater than my plans, and it took a few months for me to see exactly how it would all play out.  As a result of my blog, I joined a Facebook group for a Christian Women’s author/speaker conference.  In that group of hundreds, if not thousands of women, I found a wonderful lady with a passion/blog for chasing dreams, Chasing Kite Tails.  She was looking for women to participate in her “Kite Tails” project who would passionately and purposefully chase their dreams for 4 months.  I joined her project to commit to my writing.  When my life started spinning out of control, I stopped writing, but I was in the midst of a group of women to encourage me and help me through it all.  I’ve never met them, all I know about them is their dreams and what they post on Facebook…but they have been amazing, encouraging, inspiring, ­fill in the blank with more awesome verbs here.    He gave me time to get away with my best friends who I rarely get to spend time with because of the busyness of life.  I had the opportunity to take a summer vacation with my family.  The time to relax with my family and bask in the beauty and tranquility of the beach really put my life back in perspective.  God used April 14 to position me for “life” that was going to happen and surround me with positive, encouraging people. It wasn’t perfect, it hasn’t been easy, and I know it’s not over, but I can look back today and I know that I’m definitely on my way.  So I’m back, I’m posting, and I’m keeping my eyes on Him!  I’m looking forward to the journey ahead!

Friday, April 20, 2012

I am more than...a bystander

But whoever disowns me before others, I will disown before my Father in heaven.”  Matthew 10:33 (NIV)
I would like to say that we all do it….I would love to say that everyone has that moment...but honestly, I would only be saying it to make me feel better about the choices, or lack of choices, that I make in uncomfortable situations to not stand up for my belief in the Power of God.  Earlier this week, I was having a “social responsibility” discussion with someone in a higher position than me.  We were talking about young children who were incarcerated, and the programs to help them once they are released such as job corp., rehab centers, etc.  His stance essentially was that it is a waste of time to attempt to help them readapt to society if they have been incarcerated for most of their lives, because it is what they know, and they will most likely be offenders again. I know it does happen that way sometimes, but I also know that God can change the life of any man, woman, or child.  He can turn the worst sinner into a Bible-believing, people-saving Christian.  I’ve seen Him do it countless times to those that the world has written off as a “criminal,” “deadbeat,” “thug,” or “insert bad word here.” He’s done it for me.   As I was listening to his argument, I felt God nudging me to stand up for His endless Power and testify to the changes that only He can make.  Do you want to know what I did?  Nothing...I was a bystander who stood in silence.  I didn’t say a word.  I may have even nodded my head during his argument!  But through my doing nothing, I actually did something, I denied my God, and I denied my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.

Monday, April 16, 2012

I am more than...

Proverbs 31:10-31 NIV (I will post the entire scripture at the end since it is somewhat lengthy  J)
Epilogue:  The Wife of Noble Character

Although the second half of Proverbs 31 is entitled “The Wife of Noble Character,” the Proverbs 31 Woman is not just an example of what a wife should be.  She is the epitome of what it means to live your day with fervor, zeal, and zest for God.  In every single aspect of her life, she deliberate and thoughtful, she is kind, she is selfless, she is poised, she is simply amazing…essentially she is perfect.  And quite honestly, she is VERY INTIMIDATING.

Sunday, April 15, 2012


Welcome to my site, “I am more than...”!!!!
I am so excited to have you visit with me.  For some time, God has been tugging at my heart to share my story with others as inspiration for what he can transform and restore through His Mighty Power and Grace.  I am tired of running from God and my severe ailment of chronic procrastination has worn me down, so I decided to sit down and not get up until I got back in line with His Plan for me….and thus “I am more than…” was born!
My site is titled “I am more than…,”because every time I think I have hit rock bottom, God can’t or won’t save me, and I have really messed up big this time, He shows me that through Him, I AM MORE THAN any snare or trick of the enemy.  I still consider myself fairly young (although, I’m not sure for how much longerJ).   In my life, I have had to stand against some large obstacles.  Some were involuntary, but most were self-invoked.  Even though there was some suffering as I learned very valuable lessons, God never failed me, He never left me, and He never let me fall.