Thursday, August 30, 2012

i am more than... temptations on the bathroom counter

“But you, man of God, flee from all of this and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, endurance, and gentleness.”  I Timothy 6:11

Every morning, I sit my 1-year-old, Carter Mackenzie, on my bathroom counter so that I can comb her hair.  I’m sure there are much better places for this daily ritual to occur, but the convenience of the sink, her hair bows, and rubber bands all in one place keep me coming back to this same spot.  Every day as Carter sits there, she touches this thing, picks up that thing, smells this bottle, pours out the contents of that container….and every day, I constantly say, “Carter put it down,” “don’t touch,” “that’s not for babies”…and every day, she gives me this look that clearly says “Yea, whatever mom!”  As she was getting her hair combed for church Sunday morning, and we repeated the same scene verbatim, I wondered, “How many times will I have to tell her this before she just doesn’t do it anymore?”  Then, I had an epiphany; she’s not going to stop! As long as I keep sitting her on the counter with all of these temptations, she’s going to keep touching, picking up, smelling, and pouring out.  She’s a toddler.  That’s what she does!  As her (hopefully) more mature, wiser mother, I have to know that I have to keep temptation out of her way or….wait for it…comb her hair in a more kid-friendly place.  So tomorrow, maybe I’ll try the breakfast table :).

It is funny how learning moments with my kids turn into learning moments for me.  How many times do I know something is bad for me, but I keep tempting myself with it?  How often do I talk with friends who say that aren’t going to do something anymore, but they go back to a person or place that triggers that thing they aren’t going to do?  A LOT.  It’s so easy to do, and sometimes, so difficult to even recognize the things that provoke us.  When we are spiritual or mental “toddlers” in trying to overcome a temptation, we have to completely remove ourselves from those situations as much as possible, or we will continue to fail when trying to fight it.

Tuesday, August 21, 2012

i am more poker face

“As iron sharpens iron; so a man sharpens the countenance of his friend.”  Proverbs 27:17
Late Saturday, one of my best friends and I were on the phone getting updates on each other’s weeks, and enjoying good conversation like only girls can do until the wee hours of the morning.  As it always seems to happen these days when you start to catch up….the conversation turned to Facebook.  Statuses, photos, pictures, etc.  My friend then gave me a very interesting perspective of why she is NOT a frequent visitor of The Book...

 When on Facebook, most people put on their best face, their Poker Face.  Online, you can be whoever you like.  You only have to show your good side.  Your good photo side, the clean side of your house, the polite side of your children, the loving side of your relationship, the productive side of your work week…you can showcase a perfect life every day.  The best part is that no one ever really has to know what’s REALLY going on in your life, only what you want to show them.  My friend and I got into a discussion of this the new social media trend.  Is it reality?  Is it healthy? Is it productive?  Is it the start of superficial "friend”ships, envy, and discontentment? 

Sunday, August 19, 2012

I’m Back!!!

I launched i am more than on April 15, 2012.  God had placed the longing and need to help others by sharing my story many years ago.  Along the way, many small opportunities to pour into others lives presented themselves, and I took them.  But I never committed to anything big, so they weren’t permanent and eventually they dwindled away.  But on April 14, as I was in bed thinking that I was on my way to sleep, He showed me a website, gave me a name, told me to create and write.  And I did until nearly 7 AM.  I had so much excitement, drive, and passion.  And then, as if on cue, my life fell apart.  My marriage that I thought had miraculously turned around was literally crumbling in my hands.  Parenting was hard, work was hard, and taking care of home was HARD. My last post was on April 20.  My encouragement for i am more than had come from how much God had brought me through and that my life was now moving forward in the right direction…not that it was still falling apart.  I took that as my sign that maybe God didn’t put it on my heart after all, maybe it was my plan that wasn’t His Plan.  Four months later, I’m looking back on it all, and I know that it was Him who put the dream and launch date in my heart.  His Plans were greater than my plans, and it took a few months for me to see exactly how it would all play out.  As a result of my blog, I joined a Facebook group for a Christian Women’s author/speaker conference.  In that group of hundreds, if not thousands of women, I found a wonderful lady with a passion/blog for chasing dreams, Chasing Kite Tails.  She was looking for women to participate in her “Kite Tails” project who would passionately and purposefully chase their dreams for 4 months.  I joined her project to commit to my writing.  When my life started spinning out of control, I stopped writing, but I was in the midst of a group of women to encourage me and help me through it all.  I’ve never met them, all I know about them is their dreams and what they post on Facebook…but they have been amazing, encouraging, inspiring, ­fill in the blank with more awesome verbs here.    He gave me time to get away with my best friends who I rarely get to spend time with because of the busyness of life.  I had the opportunity to take a summer vacation with my family.  The time to relax with my family and bask in the beauty and tranquility of the beach really put my life back in perspective.  God used April 14 to position me for “life” that was going to happen and surround me with positive, encouraging people. It wasn’t perfect, it hasn’t been easy, and I know it’s not over, but I can look back today and I know that I’m definitely on my way.  So I’m back, I’m posting, and I’m keeping my eyes on Him!  I’m looking forward to the journey ahead!